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2012-02-11T13:35:00.001+08:00

我也许不会是世界上最帅最可爱的那个人。

我也许不会是世界上最富有的那个人。

我也许不会是世界上最聪明的那个人。

我也许不会是你理想中所喜欢的那个人。

我也许不会是最了解你的那个人。

我也许不是那个最会逗你笑的人。

我也许不是世界上最好的男人。

我不知道你觉得我人怎样，我不知道我够不够好，配不配得上你。

我唯一知道的事是我真的喜欢你。

看着你和别的人在一起我伤心又难过，同时我又羡慕那个男生。

看见你和别的男生有很多话聊时我嫉妒他，同时我又觉得是自己不够好才会这样。

我不知道和你在一起时我是否会让你开心，但我愿意去尝试。

我会让你成为着世界上最开心最幸福最让人羡慕的那个女孩。

在二月的第二十九天，你愿意牵着我的手吗？

和我一起度过很多的四年，就为了能庆祝我们的纪念日。

2012-02-06T21:22:00.001+08:00

有些事你不问，你永远也不会知道。

你不知道的事好多，但如果你想知道我一定会说。

很多事不是我不说，是我想说也没有人想听。

就算说了，有些人就是不在乎。

每有人知道我为什么那么讨厌我的生日。

没有人知道我为什么不喜欢我爱的人对我说对不起。

没有人知道我为什么那么喜欢生病。

没有人知道我为什么那么叛逆。

没有人知道我的故事。

没有人知道真正的我，就连我也不知道。

没有人在我伤心时直到我不快乐。

我一生中那么多的为什么没有人知道，不是因为我不说。

而是我说了也没人在乎，要不然就是没有人想知道。

我一直很努力不这些你不知道的事，变成你知道的是但

是。。。结果我放弃了。

对不起，是我不够好。

我不应该那样对你。

我不应该因为你一个字的回复而感到伤心。

我不应该因为这样而和你闹变扭。

对不起我应该更体谅你的。

想想你和我聊天也快三个月了，开始觉得无聊也并不是没理

由。

你不像我那样。

我每天起来第一件做的事就是查看电华看你有没有发简讯给

我。

最后一件做的事就是陪你聊天到你睡着，要不然就是对你说

声晚安。

我每分每秒都在想念着你，时时刻刻都在查电话只怕忽略

你。

我因为喜欢你而喜欢和你聊天，就算每天聊也不会无聊，就

算你回复我一个字我也开心。

今年二月有四年一次的二十九号，原本打算在哪一天向你告

白看来不需要了。

结果我还是注定一个人孤单的度过一生。

如果哪一天我离开了，你一定要幸福别让我担心了。

每一次爱一个人都被伤得那么深，我想我以后不会再去爱任

何人了。

虽然不舍得放开你，但没有我的你还是会快乐那就够了。

从明天开始我想我会让自己很忙很忙，一直忙到睡觉的那一

刻为止。

就算病了也不会在乎，就算会死我也会笑着离开。

我一直想对你说，认识你真好能真为你soulmate 我真高兴。

最大的遗憾是我有好多好多事想和你一起做去没机会。

看来到头来我还是孤单一个，还以为会有你陪伴。

其实到现在我还是很想你，很想和你聊天。

但我怕结果没有发简讯给你。

我怕烦你，我怕看到你的回应，看到一个字的回应让我觉得

你不像和我聊天。

你安全到家了吗？

你吃了吗？

这些都是我想问你的。

是我想太多了吗？

难道这就是我们的结局？

和我想象的结局不同。

我要的结局是我牵着你的手，一直走一直走下去。

对不起烦了你那么久，以后我会控制自己的。

最后还是要和你说声对不起。

2012-02-06T10:32:00.000+08:00

人生充满了无数的不公平，这就是现实。

在比赛里，人人都说我是赢家，但结果并非如此。

比赛的结果是我输给一个明显不如我的对手。

输赢对我来说我并不在乎，我在乎的是那些支持我的人，我

让你们失望了。

是我不够好。

现实比这还要残酷。

我一直以来就好像别人生命里的一个过路客。

当他们有需要时，我永远都在他们身旁陪着他们度过低潮。

但当他们离开低潮时，往往就会忘了我的存在。

我并不要求任何回报，结果我慢慢的被遗忘，并且离开的他

们的故事。

在这二十二年里有多少日子我是多么希望有那么一个人可以

陪着我，但我从来没有过。

不管我在多么的不快乐，多么的伤心我都是一个人躲在被窝

里哭泣。

一直到了睡醒，才装作什么事都没有发生过。

我并不是没有尝试找人聊天，只是。。。

我宁愿一直生病，是因为我只有在生病时才有人关心。

所以我特别喜欢生病：）

我知道这就是现实，残酷的现实。

现实里不是每个人都可以和自己心爱的人在一起的。

有时候我好想问你我们是否有未来，但又害怕你的回答而选

择了等待。

我知道你可能害怕被伤害，或者伤害到我所以不敢或不想去

爱。

我多么的希望你能给我和自己一个机会去尝试，如果我们不

去尝试有着能知道不可能。

至少我们试了，这辈子就不会有任何遗憾了。

我愿意一直等待，因为你就是值得我等待。

你绝对值得。

这首歌我希望你能去听一听。。。

2012-02-05T22:26:00.001+08:00

几年前的我曾经陷入这样的问题里，我做出了一个让我有一

点点后悔的决定。

几年后的我在次的陷入这样的问题里，唯一不同的是这次做

出决定的不是我，而是你。

我喜欢你，这在也不是什么秘密了。

我一次次的对你表示，我害怕失去你的恐惧，那不是谎言是

真言。

佳乐几年前我亲手把我的幸福给放弃，我把当时的最爱给放

开了。

我选择让她离开到国外读书，因为我知道这样她比较快乐。

但后来我后悔了，因为她说当时她会离开是因为没有人留下

她。

其实我有想过要留下她。。。

其实我一天天对自己失去了信心，开始对爱情没期待了。

你将是我最后爱上的人了。

我知道你怕伤害爱你的人，所以选择不去爱，但我就是想被

你爱。

我也就去爱你，我就是要证明爱你的人未必会被你伤害。

或许在当完兵之后，我会出国留学。

但我更想要的结局是你挽留我，让我好好的去爱你一回。

让我留下来陪你好吗？

我好舍不得你。

我不知道我会留下来痴痴的等待，还是会带着伤悲离开。

我想我会就这样地爱着你，到你得到幸福为止。

我们会有未来吗？

属于我们的故事会有怎样的结局，我好期待着。。。

2012-02-04T14:59:00.001+08:00

故事是因为我而开始的。

但你爱上别人时我以为我会放得下你，结果我还是厚着脸皮

回到你的生命里。

就这样我开始了这属于我们的故事。

这故事一写就写了快三个月。

在这三个月里，你又爱上了另一个人。

这次我以为我能放下你了，结果我还是不能，因为我比以前

更爱你了。

那一次我真的比自己忘记你，放弃你。

但那一晚我反而哭了，我问了我自己“你就这样离开了不会

后悔吗？”结果我还是留了下来

我告诉自己，“在你还没找到幸福之前，我会永远陪着你关心

你。”

或许你要的不是我，但至少当你需要一个依靠时你还要一个

我。

最近我偶尔会惹你生气，就因为这样我害怕我会失去你。

昨晚不止怎么了，我又开始害怕失去你了。

对你来说或许你不知道我为什么那么怕失去你，但对我来说

我很明白我不能没有你。

我害怕失去你，不只是因为我爱你，而是因为。。。

哪一天当我发现你和别人放了在一起时，我很在意我很伤心

但我不想让你知道，所以我说我不在意。

虽然当时你向我解释了，但我还是又嫉妒又羡慕他的。

我好希望有一天我可以。。。

这故事又美又伤感。

如果有一天我放弃了，那并不是因为我不爱你了。

而是我终于明白了自己有多么得不好，多么的配不上你。

你也找到了自己的幸福了。

是时候让自己从睡梦中清醒过来了。

每当你以一个字回复我的简讯时，我终会觉得难过，和没用。

现在的我就是这样的心情。

佳乐，如果哪一天你喜欢上了谁就去爱吧。

我和你的约定就忘了它吧。

只要你快乐和幸福那就够了。

单身对我来说已经麻木了。

这几年来我发现自己，天生注定是单身的。

爱一个人对我来说太痛了，我怕我真的害怕再次的失去。

但我愿意为了你再次地等待，等待着一个不知何时才会发生

的奇迹。

我好希望能和你牵着手，一起到老。

我想和你一起做我们想做的事。

我想这辈子都爱你疼你，我想永远的担心着你。

我愿意等着你，守护着你，直到你找到你的幸福为止。

你愿意和我在一起吗？

do you know what this picture means??

羡慕与妒忌。。。

2012-01-16T14:05:00.001+08:00

羡慕与妒忌。。。

什么是羡慕? 

什么是妒忌？

 两者是否不一样？

两者是否只有一线之差？

还是说在某某地方两者之间有某种相同之处 ？

两者是否在同一时间只可以生存着一个，还是说两者可以并

存。

羡慕是：爱慕，钦慕，因喜爱他人有某种长处、好处或优越条件

等而希望自己也有。

妒忌是：指在某人想法中，某种重要关系被第三者所破坏衰弱

或影响，或者别人拥有自己没有

的某种资源或特点。在爱情之中常有“吃醋”的说法。

读着读着觉得妒忌和羡慕是可以并存的。

而并存的它们就叫羡妒也称羡嫉这个字。 意识是又羡慕又妒

忌 。

存在这世界的我们，有几个人曾经羡慕还是妒忌甚至羡妒他人

的好？

我就曾经羡慕着他们的好。。。

2012-01-05T23:00:00.000+08:00

生日快乐嘉玮。。。

我快乐吗？

我以为今年会比起以往来的快乐，因为今年有你，结果。。。

我的生日再过一个半小时就要结束了。

不知道因该感到高兴还是伤心。

自从那一年开始我就不爱庆祝生日。

每年我都坚持着孤单地度过，今年也不例外。

可笑的事今年的生日，可是近几年以来最倒霉的了。

我不高兴但是我已麻木了。

再过几天就是你离开我的日子了，您还好吗？

快结束把生日。明年在继续折腾着我把。

简单来说今年没什么一样的孤单，一样的度过。

唯一不同的是今年我有你佳乐，你答应我无理的要求。

谢谢你

再过一个小时就要结束了我一天的女友

你是我今年最好的礼物了：）

回顾2011年。。。

2012-01-01T15:53:00.001+08:00

回想起2011年，它发生了好多好多的事。

所有大大小小，和我有关没关系的事真的好多好多。

在那一年里有好多让我无法忘记的回忆。。。

第一个让我留下深刻印象的回忆就是我发现你存在的那一刻。

那一刻当我看见你的留言时，我觉得你好有趣哦。

在好奇之下我决定去你的profile走一走看一看。

后来看到你当时的dp是。。。

我心里想，“这女孩长得那么可爱为什么那么凶啊？“

好奇之下好想和你做朋友所以。

一天天的等待终于等到你接受的那一天了。。。

我迫不及待的跟你说了 hi there。

就这样我们的故事开始了。。。

每一天我都期待着，期待和你聊天的那一刻。

第二个让我留下深刻印象的回忆就是我发现你有男朋友的那一

刻。

心里有一种酸溜溜的感觉，那时我才发现原来我。。。 

不过一切都已经太迟了，因为伤心我选择了离开。

我以为选择了离开我可以忘记你，但我错了。

所以我忍不住又回到你的生命里了。

我对自己说，就算不能和你在一起，我也要保护着守护着关心

着你 

就这样我们又开始了我们故事的新一页。。。

2011年11月10号。。。

我从新开始了我们的故事，我们的故事就从 

"stella what you doing huh:D" 开始了。

我以为我能放下我以为我只是喜欢你没想到。。。

当我想在一次离开时，我知道自己再也不能潇洒地离开了

因为我爱上你了，就算只是每天和你聊天我已经满足了。

我好庆幸自己能认识你，你是我在2011年最幸福的相遇。

也是发生在我身上最 美好的事。

你问我为什么喜欢你？

没原因 就是喜欢你

在初次相遇 有重逢的心情

深呼吸 让心动隐形

我知道你有喜欢的人但我还是选择留下和等待，

聆听着你的心声。。。

完美的爱情 是无声的旋律

听 我听你 不确定的语气

我等你 放下你的犹豫

我从来不知道你要的是什么

我也不知道你为何会做出那样的决定，但我相信。。。

嘿 如果你 轻轻闭上眼睛

我会明白 你做的决定

Cause I Believe 那幸福不灭的定律

对我来说你不一定要牵着我的手，只要你快乐你牵着谁我都会

快乐，到时我还是会默默的守着你，祝福你。。。

在你手心 会有谁给你的美丽

静者恒静 就让我的心安静地守着你

祝福不用回音

我曾经问过我自己为什么喜欢你。。。

没原因 就是喜欢你

就像海眷恋 天空般 的心情

你前进 看着你背影

就足够世界 无条件 的放晴

如果哪一天你对我说你有了一个你很喜欢的人,只要你开心我

会帮你得到你的幸福，我祝福你。。。

你如果已爱上他的姓名

爱如果已没有我的空隙

嘿 只要你 可以永远开心

我会情愿 渐渐被忘记

我相信幸福谁都能给，问题就出在你要的幸福谁能,哪一天来

临时我会祝福你。。。

Cause I Believe 那幸福不灭的定律

在你手心 会有谁给你的美丽

静者恒静 就让我的心安静地守着你

把祝福送给你

我相信幸福，我相信你是最好的。

你值得被珍惜，你值得最好的 。。。

Oh  I believe Cause I believe

那幸福不灭的定律

你的手心 不一定要由我握紧

就像恒星 总会有发光的原因

Oh I believe 你值得被珍惜

也值得我放弃

等待。。。

2011-12-24T21:59:00.000+08:00

等待。。。

是漫长的。

等待。。。

并不孤单。

等一个自己爱的人才孤单。

等待是一个既漫长又孤单的过程，

但为何我还是选择了等待。

等待着一个不知是否会开始的故事。

或许这是一个愚蠢的决定，

但我还是选择了等待。

等待着或许有一天我和你可以拥有一个属于我们的故事。

我会在你身旁默默地等待。

等待着希望的到来。

但如果哪一天你得到了真正的幸福了，

我会放弃等待，从新的踏上寻找的旅程。。。

Life was always a matter of waiting for the right moment to act.

珍惜。。。

2011-12-21T18:04:00.002+08:00

我不知道你是怎样找到这里，不过你看到了我的心里话我也很高兴。

我曾经愚蠢的以为自己可以再一次的潇洒的离开你而收拾自己的心情。

但我没有想到的是自己之前其实或许对你只是有一点点地迷恋罢了，所以才可以潇洒的离开。

忘记痛之后再回来。

但这次不一样了，因为我爱上你了我不想再一次离开你。

所以这次我失败了。

我曾经一度相信自己只是喜欢你而不是爱你。

后来，我才发现原来我是怕自己不够好才欺骗自己说我只是喜欢你。

昨天我一度面临人生一个艰难的抉择。

我差一点又要选择离去，但仔细想一想才发现我不能失去你就算是朋友也不能失去。

最后我还是选择珍惜你的存在。

现在的我只想呆在你身边：D

每天和你聊聊天，就算只是一句简单的问候。

念着你吃了吗，早一点睡，等等等。。。

你不快乐，我借你我耳朵。

你快乐，我躲在一边为你庆幸。

默默的守护你，直到你得到真正的快乐和幸福。

我会永远地珍惜你小猪永远永远。。。

我会让你每天都是快快乐乐的：Ｄ

不要害怕伤害到我。因为你不可能伤害到我。

因为只要有你在我只会感到幸福和快乐。

The medicine of life is to have true faithful friends.

Thick and thin, tall and small, fast and slow. Tell me who is always there for you. I am sure you know. Your best friend, of course, don’t let him or her go.

i'll be waiting for you

2011-12-18T18:32:00.001+08:00

i'll be waiting for you...

恭喜小猪有了男友，现在的你一定很幸福快乐吧？

希望他对你够好，还有你们要长久啊。

看见自己心爱的人和别人在一起，在潇洒的人都会难过。

有谁不希望是自己给所爱的人幸福和快乐。

但如果你不是那个幸运的家伙那也只有祝福的份。

我对你的祝福是真心的你要一直这样的幸福快乐下去。

而我会像从前一样一直在你身后守护着你。

在继续守护和等待你之前，对不起我需要离开一段时间来放下心里的痛。

我不是一个伟人，看见心爱的人和别人在一起还可以那么潇洒。

所以咯在我不在的时候你要照顾自己。

水要多喝。

每餐要吃。

还要早一点睡。

对了还有生病时不要一直吃薯片。

看吧你一定很高兴吧，不用听我唠唠叨叨了。

对不起，之前说好了要一直和你聊天每天的聊，还说好你不可以破坏这约定。

结果是自己先破坏了。

你是唯一可以聊心事的四个人之一，你不再时我会好想你的。

我答应你我会尽快地在以快乐的心回来的。

在那之前你不可以出事啊。

stella 就算我在疗伤，但如果你需要人聊心事时随时都可以找我：D

你永远排在第一位哦：）

等待是漫长地

但也因为等待而有了希望

等一个人并不孤单

等一个自己爱的人才孤单

等待。。。

一直地等待幸福列车得来临

一个不知是否会来的列车。。。

小猪我还爱着你，等着你：）

Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering.

Life was always a matter of waiting for the right moment to act.

当我知道你们相爱

2011-12-18T01:18:00.000+08:00

当我知道你们相爱。。。

当我知道你们相爱。。。

我知道一切又要从头再来了。

我知道自己没本事揭开你心锁，所以必须让给他人来揭开。

以下的每一个字每一句话也许你永远也看不见但我还是要对你说。。。

现在的你和她在一起了，我祝福你们。

我希望你会对她好一点。

她喜欢得让她去做好吗？

不要阻止她，不要约束她。

如果你对她是真心的我会祝福你们。

但如果你对她不好，那请你小心了，因为我还没放弃。

小佳乐：）

恭喜你又找到你的幸福快乐了。

要记得哦如果伤心的话我永远都在你身边。

我会一直陪伴着你，直到你找到你的未来为止。

我祝福你和他快乐。。。

对不起，我说过要一直和你继续的聊天，不停的聊。

但如果有一天我每回复你的话，我只是心情不好要放个假而已。

我答应你我会很快就回来了。

别忘了我已爱上你了，哪里舍得离开你那么久吗：）

"If you love somebody, set them free. If they return, they were always yours. If they don’t, they never were."

" Sometimes you have to let go of the one you love to find out if there is really something there."

喜欢还是爱？

2011-12-17T14:44:00.000+08:00

喜欢还是爱？

一直以来我都对你和对自己说我喜欢你，只是喜欢。

但我从来都没有发现原来我已爱上你了。

不知道从几时开始我慢慢的从喜欢到爱你。

不过今天我终于知道了。

原来我并不喜欢你，我是爱你得。

但已经太晚了。

今天我知道你们相爱，我忍着痛祝福你和他。

一直以来我都告诉自己，我不够好。

你需要的是一个好男人。

如果哪一天你找到一个好男人我会祝福你。

‘‘Love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.“

只要你快乐我就快乐：）

看来你是无法帮我完成我的生日愿望了。

就算在不开心我也不会让你知道，因为不像你自责自己。

看来从今以后我又要台前退到幕后了，在你身后默默的扶持着你。

虽让不甘愿，那么的辛苦才来到如今这里，但这早已是一个不变的事实了。

这是我对自己所许下的承诺，我会一直遵守着直到那一天得到来。

之前我也走到了这地步，虽然花了好一段时间才走出那悲伤。

但始终还是走了出来。

相信这一次也一样。

但我再次回到你身边时，那就代表那个偶尔能逗你笑得傻瓜已经回来了。。。

记住不要对我说出对不起这三个字，因为我爱你。

”Love means never having to say you’re sorry.“

男人。。。女人。。。

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男人。。。女人。。。

男人。。。

希望自己能高一点。

女人。。。

希望自己能在瘦一点

男人和女人在乎的是否会一样。。。

男人。。。

希望女人不要那么粘和烦自己。

女人。。。

希望男人可以给自己多一点关心和安全感。

或许男人和女人永远都不会是彼此心目中的理想情人。。。

男人。。。

害怕女人喜欢上自己的钱。

女人。。。

害怕男人喜欢上自己的身体。

男人和女人都有害怕会被彼此的东西。。。

男人。。。

追女人就好像隔了一道墙那么难。

女人。。。

追男人就好像隔了一尘沙那么的容易。

这个世界男人和女人是否可以平等。。。

男人。。。

希望自己的另一半又美又性感。

女人。。。

希望自己的另一半有钱有车。

男人。。。

总喜欢接近被伤害过女人。

女人。。。

总喜欢那些会伤害她们的男人。

男人。。。

主动。

女人。。。

被动。

男人要如何才能打动女人？

男人。。。

永远不会在心爱的人面前哭泣。

女人。。。

愿意在心爱的人面前哭泣。

男人为了尊严，女人为了保障。

男人和女人永远有着不一样的意见，就因为这样我们才有着期待，

期待着下一秒会发生什么事。

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珍惜。。。

在茫茫人海中，能够相遇是一种缘份。

但有多少人会去珍惜这份难得的缘份。

人类往往都不会去珍惜身边人，一直到失去了才会觉得惋惜。

你们是否曾经失去过，也尝试去挽回？

为何我们平时不要再失去前去珍惜那些难得的缘份，偏要等到

失去了才在那哭泣。

我们永远也不知道下一秒会发生什么事，下一个失去的又会是

谁。

九把刀的书里有这么一段对话：

“对不起。”女孩子。
　　
“不用对不起，你从未应允过我什么。”男孩子。
　　
“对不起。”女孩子哭了。
　　
“不用对不起，有些事，一开始就已经决定好了，努力是没有用

的。”男孩子强忍着，不让眼泪掉下。
　
　“对不起。”女孩子将脸埋在双掌里。
　
　“不用对不起，不过你要明白，有些事，是一万年也不会改变

的。”男孩子坚定地说：“我永远都在等你当我的新娘子。”

不管你是谁如果你心里现在有一个你很爱的人，请你们要好好

地去珍惜彼此，而不是等到失去了才来哭泣。

有些人失去了还找的回，但有些人一旦失去了就是失去了在这

么苦苦的哀求也不会回来了。

记得哦要珍惜身边的每一个人。

人生十字路口的抉择

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人生十字路口的抉择。。。

生命就好像行走在人行道上。。。

有时候是一条直直的路，不必做出仍喝的决定。只需要跟随行

人道一直走下去。

有时候是一条分叉口，必须选择向左还是向右走。

有时候是一条十字路口，必须选择向直，向左还是向右走。

有时候甚至会走到一个尽头，必须往回走,但也有可能那就是你

的终点。

常常我们要面对着许多决择

在我们的人生里也存在着许多十字路口

有时候我们能毫无犹疑地作出决择

有时候我们却孤立无援地徘徊在十字路口

其实举棋不定的滋味真的蛮不好受

就好比一个漂浮的浮萍随波逐流

没有明确的方向看不到自己的心意

孤立无援的却也明白没有人可以帮到自己。

选择了向右走，又害怕会错过在左边转角的一切。

选择了向左走，又害怕会错过在右边转角的一切。

每個人都會貪心、都會想要一个對自己最好的選擇。

因为每个人都知道有些人事物一旦错过了就是错过了。

就算再回到淡出记忆里的那个地方，有些事已经再也不一样

了。

每个人都害怕错过自己幸福的一瞬间。

所以都会拥有自私的时候。

当年我做出了以俄错误的决定，一直后悔到现在。

现在我要帮你找到你的幸福。

就像当初我对自己所需下的承诺，现在是时候去实现它了。

就算不能和你在一起只要你快乐就已足够了。

~重要的不是爱上了什么样的人而是怎么去爱

我爱你

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“我爱你-许普豪”一定要听。

喜歡你是一種奇妙的事

我自己也無法解釋

希望在未來的日子互相扶持

情路中有許多傷心的事

我會努力讓它消失

看著你笑的像天使

就算再苦也值得試

我愛你這是世界上最美的字

要用靈魂刻最美的詩

我將一生寫上你名字

我愛你想要對你說聲千萬次

只怕時間不夠我表示

就從現在開始讓我抱你一輩子

我爱你或许是这世界上最美丽的字

但它同时也是世上最伤人的字

从爱上你的那一刻起我就想对你说出这三个字

或许是你被爱上得太深

或许是我不够勇敢

才会让我一直不敢对你真诚的告白。

这不是你的错

是我不够好才让你无法忘记之前的痛。

情路中有許多傷心的事

我會努力讓它消失

看著你笑的像天使

就算再苦也值得試

只怕時間不夠我表示。。。

從你眼睛看著自己最幸福的倒影

握在手心的默契是明天的指引

無論是遠近什麼世紀在天堂擁抱或荒野流離

我愛你我敢去未知的任何命運

我愛你我願意准你來跋扈地決定世界邊境

偶爾我真的不懂你又有誰真懂自己

往往兩個人多親密是透過傷害來證明

像焦慮不安我就任性怕洩漏你怕所以你生氣

我愛你讓我聽你的疲憊和恐懼

我愛你我想親你倔強到極限的心

我撐起所有愛圍成風雨的禁地

擋狂風豪雨想讓你喘口氣

被劃破的信心需要時間痊癒

夢想纏著懷疑未來看不清

就緊緊的擁抱去傳遞能量和勇氣

我愛你我愛你我想去

未知的任何命運

我愛你讓我聽你的疲憊和恐懼

我愛你我想親你倔強到極限的心

哪裡都一起去一起仰望星星

一起走出森林一起品嘗回憶

一起誤會妒忌一起雨過天晴

一起更懂自己一起找到意義

我愛你我不要沒有你

我不能沒有你絕不能沒有你。。。

为了你我愿意当后备

为了你我愿意尝试

为了你我愿意等待

今天是你的生日

我希望你能快乐的渡过

我希望全世界的人可以知道你是我的最爱

我要你成为那个别人羡慕的对象

而不是羡慕他人的人

我爱你我愿意让你成为最幸福的那一个

让我牵着你的手走向未来好吗？

黄靖伦- 缺席

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缺席

在你寂寞时，是否有突然地想起我？

曾经答应过你的一切不是我不要遵守，是你选择不让我遵守诺言。

我和你明明没有了未来，为何我还不放手。

是我不甘心还是不舍为何我还在固执的拔河。

其实我真的很难过只是难过都沦为沉默。

可能我真的不懂得让你更快乐。

既然如此我是否该放手让你离去。

给你的爱那些美丽已长成蔓藤纠缠着我的生命。

爱是不是都一样无论多漫长终究曲终人散。

可是我不想因为不敢而却步沮丧然后半途收场。

我想和你在一起却在你的未来缺席。

在你的未来缺席像是一出剧本未完待续。

如果还有如果我会毫不犹豫拥抱着你。

能不能将你的样子都忘掉，舍不舍的爱我无法控制

我只想要把你拥抱。

爱上一个人没有解药

我的静脉瘤者爱陪你到老

原来我还会微笑

我真的好想和你在一起

不想在你的未来缺席

我想一直陪你到老

从相遇到结识

从结识到相爱

从相爱到结婚

从结婚到生子

到离开这世界为止，我都想陪你度过。

你的未来是否容纳得下那么狭小的我？？？

开始，旅程，结束

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在爱上你的那一刻，我是多么希望能永远爱着你，但我知

世界上是没有永远的。

所以我只希望时间能在即将结束的那一刻为我们而停止。

让我能在最后一次好好的爱你。

就让时间停留在这一刻吧。。。

从我认识你的那一天，这一路来我每天都好幸福啊。

每天烦着你要吃晚餐，每天因为说错话而被你骂stupid ，

晚上陪你聊电话到你入眠这一切都让我好幸福好幸福啊。。。

我一直相信你会因为我对你的好而爱上我，

所以我一直默地等待。

等待着那一天得到。。。

等着等着，没想到我想要的结局没发生，

反而我不要的结局产生了。

就这样突然你决定离开我，我因为爱你而不肯放开你。

但我这样做对了吗？爱你不是因该让你快乐吗？

我因该拉住你，还是放开你？

结果。。。

我因为爱你而选择了放开你。

因为爱你我宁愿自己难过。

因为爱你我选择了离开。。。

我把对你的思念一一的写了下来，

就算你看不到寂寞，

只要你还记得我和你之间的快乐，

那我就会微笑。。。

我虽然选择了离开你，但我对你的爱将化生为你的影子。

永远追随在你身边，但你需要我时我就会出现在你身旁。。。

我真的真的好想你，

每当我看着黑夜时就会有一种说不出的想念。。。

45 THINGS A GIRL WANT, BUT WON'T ASK FOR:

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1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
...4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING ..
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.

24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ..
26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT’S IMPORTANT.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.

35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ..
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.

You’ll never know when she needs just a little more love .. ♥!

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一次幸福的机会

一次幸福的机会;

我是命运的玩偶，还以为它给了我机会结果只是一场梦。

你一再的给我机会，但老天就是不给我们机会，因要破坏我们。

每当你需要我时，我总无法出现在你身边。

就这样我们一再的错失彼此。

我不会因错过昨天的机会而伤心，因为它已从我生命中流走。

我不会因明天是否有机会而期待，因为明天是个未知数。

我会为了今天而奋斗，因为今天才是我们因该把握和珍惜的时光。

我会把握下一次机会的来临。

完美并不完美

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人没有完美，幸福没有百分百

石康鈞「不完美的完美」

李玖哲－不, 完美

人没有完美，幸福没有百分百；

　不要轻易让自己掉眼泪

　　
　　你笑，全世界跟着笑。你哭，全世界只有你一个人在哭。
　　
　　有些东西错过了就一辈子错过。
　　
　　人是会变的，守住一个不变的承诺却守不住颗善变的心。
　　
　　有时侯执着是一种负担，放弃是种解脱，人没有完美，幸福

没有百分百，
　　
　　知道自己没有能力一次拥有那么多，也没权力要求那么多。
　　
　　否则苦了自己也为难了对方。
　　
　　一颗心属于一个人，爱情里什么是公平？
　　
　　人没有完美，幸福没有百分百
　　
　　爱的深伤得也深。爱上不该爱的人，是永无天日的叹息；
　　
　　爱了不爱你的人，是眼泪决堤的开始，承诺是一张白纸，再

厚的剧本也有了结束。
　　

　　我想我知道眼泪的味道，就算付出每一分每秒，我都不曾想

逃。
　　
　　在这个世界上没有恒久的幸福，只有瞬间的惬意和安适。
　　

　如果你把我的感情当作是，一场游戏，我玩不起，更输不起

花言巧语，
　　
　　谁知道我微笑背后的痛苦？
　　
　　爱~~由一个微笑开始，在‘吻’的过程中成长，最后由滴眼泪

结束。
　　
　　受了伤，结了疤，最终还是留下痕迹，强迫自已忘了你，
　　
　　但爱过才知道原来我并不能左右这一切，也许无言才是最好

的安慰，也许回忆是最好的结局？
　　
　　傻瓜也都一样，都逃不过悲伤，因为有梦在心上，
　　
　　所以甘心流浪。续有的缘分注定要失去，有的缘分注定没结

果。
　　
　　爱一个人不一定要拥有他，但拥有一个人一定要去好好爱

他，
　　
　　不要轻言放弃。否则，对不起自己。
　　　　
　　不要因为没有阳光而走不进春天，不要因为没有歌声而放弃

自己的追求，
　　
　　不要因为没有掌声而丢掉自己的理想，其实，一条通往阳光

的大道都充满坎坷，
　　
　　一条通向理想的途径，都充满艰辛与汗水。很多事情的发展

注定它有个结束。
　　
　　好好享受美丽的过程，擦身而过的时候，
　　
　　我们应该学会遗忘，放声笑一回，大胆哭一场。抬头望一望，

一片灿烂的阳光。相
　　
　　信时间可以改变一切，不要轻易让自己掉眼泪，春有春的风

情，冬有冬的雅致。
　　
　　人生，各有各的潇洒，你笑，全世界跟着笑。你哭，全世界只

有你一个人在哭。
　　
　　当不能拥有时，唯一能做的就是令自已不要忘记，自己选择

的路跪着也要走完。

在爱情的道路上没有人是完美的。

不要因为自己的不完美而把一段幸福的机会给拒绝了。

每个人总要给自己一个机会

去感受幸福，勇敢地去爱

我们不因该因为觉得自己不完美而不敢去爱。

有时机会是自己给自己的，如果你自己也不给自己机会

那你永远也找不到幸福。

我已经给自己机会了，那你愿意给我一次机会去守护你吗？

等待虽然痛苦，但遗忘比等待还来得艰苦。

所以我选择痴痴的等待机会的来临。

一个好男人，是需要一个好女人好好把握的。也许你现在身边

的男人并不完美，并不是你一直所憧憬的那样的王子般的男

人。但是他只要是真心对你好的，你就因该去珍惜，一个女人

对男人最大的珍惜，就是好好的去爱他，心里只有一个，愿意

和他一起去承受生活中要面对的。

傻瓜

2011-10-02T00:37:00.000+08:00

傻瓜

虽然我知道当一个傻瓜等你也不会再理我了，但我就是想这样傻傻的等。

现在的你在他的关怀因该很幸福吧。

在爱情的道路里没有人是孤单的，只有不想成双成对的人。

或许结局会是这样是因为我们都不够勇敢才会这样的错过了彼此。

如果时间可以从来，这次我会把你紧紧的抱紧。

因为我还怕，还怕失去你的那个感觉，心好痛好痛哦。

如果当初我们有勇气爱彼此的话，也许现在你躺在的就是我的怀里。

而疼你爱你的那个，不是他而是我。

或许现在我们还在互传简讯，我唠叨着你吃而你骂着我笨蛋。

或许我们还在通电话，谈着你生热该如何庆祝。

又或许现在的我们早就过着快乐的日子。

一个拥有对方的日子，一个不寂寞的日子。

但现在的我们却活在两个世界里。

你拥有着你应有的快乐，而我回到那属于我的寂寞。

仪仪你要快乐，不要再割手腕了好吗？

笨蛋会担心的。

下一次再有机会时，我再也不会把你放开了：）

我会在黑暗中守护着你。

但你需要一个耳朵时，我不需要是第一个知道的。

只要你肯告诉我，就算是最后一个我也愿意。

我愿意成为你的后备轮胎。

缘分

2011-09-28T22:30:00.001+08:00

我不会因为错过一次的机会，而沮丧。

我会因等待机会，而兴奋。

缘分，一种美妙的感觉，源自于心灵的契合

一个人并不孤单

像一个人才孤单

相识是最珍贵的缘分

思念是最美丽的心情

牵挂是最真挚的心动

问候是最动听的言语

知音是最完美的深交

知己是最贴心的默契

你是我生命中最美最美的相遇

不是每个擦肩而过的人都会相识，

也不是每个相识的人都会染根牵挂。

认识你真好。

我们的故事太短，太过苍凉

谁知道，明天的我们会怎样。

谁知道，到了下个冬季，还有谁陪伴在我们的身边。

谁知道，关于爱的故事要由谁去完成。

谁知道，撒谎是不是我们自由的权利。

舍不得放开，只能变成我们的距离。

这条道路越来越长，是要面对面走，还是背对着背。

我忘不了，忘不了所有的一切。

再多的路途，只是徒增感伤而已。

也许，我们是该感到幸福。

看着你就能很满足，这就是我小小的虚荣心。

只要该幸福的人能够幸福，那我也就能够幸福。

不管时间走了多久，我还是会在从前，等待。

心受伤了，只是想要有一个温暖的怀抱。

只要这样就好，只要这样，就能够融化所有的悲伤。

竟世界上的人那么多，遇到了，也算是一种缘分。

只是为了，让一些人，一些事，不要学会勉强。

总有一天，我会放下故作坚强的姿态的，只是不是现在。

时间让我变得不可理喻，我也开始捉摸不透我自己。

总是傻傻的以为会就这样的过着一辈子。

其实我明白，很多的事情，在一开始就已经错了。

但我明明知道是错的，可那与你有关，所以即使是错的，我也认

为那么地理所当然。

两个人无论最终能否走到一起，有过一些疯狂的回忆总比空虚

的旁白好。　

我和你，也算有过一点过去。或许，对我来说，那是我的刻骨铭

心。

或许，我心里还在期望着我们还会在一起。

2011-09-28T19:59:00.001+08:00

Pencil: I'm sorry
Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong.
Pencil: I'm sorry cos you get hurt because of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.
Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad. :)

I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational.

For I know that one day, all that left with would be eraser shavings and memories used to have..."

2011-09-27T21:59:00.000+08:00

在爱上一个人的时候，就不要去计较爱情的浪漫和爱情的方式。

每个人去爱的方式不同，

不要不知足，太贪心了，

会失去难得的真爱。

有人说爱情是不会长久的，我认为是错误的。

爱情也有长久的时候，因为你没有做到保护真爱

才会导致爱情是短暂的才会认为不会长久。

爱一个人要互相信任 

爱一个人要互相理解 

爱一个人要多多用心去包容 

爱一个人要心胸宽阔 

爱一个人要尊重对方的思想和主见 

爱一个人要背后多多支持他（她），而不是阻拦 

爱一个人要面对他（她）不能陪伴你的时候，

不要有埋怨，要用笑脸对他（她）说我很好，很开心 

爱一个人要把自己内心的脆弱和委屈收藏起来，不要让他（她）知道 

爱一个人~~~~太多太多的爱 ，也许有些人 是做不到吧 

重要的一点就是爱要无私 无悔，

爱要清洁纯净，没有一丝的杂质，甘心的愿意为他（她）做任何事情，

当你爱上的时候，就要让他（她）幸福，

只要他（她）开心快乐，才是最重要！！

童话。电影。现实

2011-09-26T16:54:00.001+08:00

童话。电影。现实

我们有个童话般的相遇。。。

电影般的过程。。。

和一个残酷现实般的结局。。。

现实的结局都是分离，

唯一的分别是完美和不完美的结局。

完美的结局发生在美丽幸福的童话里。

而不完美的结局发身在一段未完成的故事里。

而我们的故事永远都不会有结局，除非。。。

我们童话般的相遇。。。

我和你素不相识，但因为无聊彼此上网聊天而相识，就这样我

们开始谈心。

电影版的过程。。。

每当你心情不好时我就会陪你聊天，安慰你，或许这就是爱情。

我一直不知道自己爱上了你，直道那一天我惹怒了你，而你不

理睬我，我才发现心有多么的痛

而这样的事发生了三次，最近的那一次你甚至想把我彻底地遗

忘。

现在的你对我忽冷忽热，我的心情就好像再坐过山车一样。

现实般的结局。。。

不是在过程中突然的分离，就是快乐的走完那过程因老年衰老

而分离。

而我和你的结局是一个未知数。。。

爱是美好的，爱人是用来珍惜的，如果你正在爱人的路上，请接

受我最真挚的祝福，不要相信

缘份，不要迷信条件的登对，相信正在相爱的你们，你们就是最

登对的一对，因为彼此的爱还

在，只要你们愿意，爱将一直陪着你们，好久好久好久好久。。。

请亲爱的你，也别然我等太久，因为我还在爱你的路上，如果你

也爱我，那就在我放手之前抓

住我，那还不算太晚。。。

如果有一天，当你想起有谁爱过你，那其中一定有一个我，如

果有一天，没有人爱你，那一定是我死了。有些人，有些感情，

一旦错过了一次，也许就再也找不回了。如果当一个笨蛋可以

这样一只爱下去，我甘愿成为一个笨蛋，然后这样一直爱下去，

就算和你没有结局，我还是喜欢你，无怨无悔，直至心灰意

冷。。。

害怕，失去

2011-09-25T19:30:00.001+08:00

这首歌代表我对你的感觉。

我害怕失去你我会。。。

流泪

伤悲

喝醉

心碎

失去生命的色彩

迷失在那梦里

永远的失去你。。。

我还怕失去你，就再也找不回你。

我要在你身边守护你

为你擦眼泪

怎么留这个结局让我悲

好想时间倒退

退回到相遇那一天

让一切结局都从新改变

回忆里全是你的美

能不能给我一次机会

让我好好的爱你疼你

难道这不是你想要的幸福吗？

因为害怕失去，所以在意。因为在意，我们才懂得该珍惜。因为

珍惜，我们才会永恒。

当拥有时我们可能不懂得珍惜，我们以为是应该的当我们不懂

得珍惜时，可能就因为一个不经意的失误，我们失去了。

失去了，就永远没办法弥补回来，就像在木板上顶钉子，把钉子

顶上后再拔下来，好似木板没什么变化，但伤口是抹灭不掉的

记忆，这伤口是没办法治愈的。
　　
我们可以安慰自己：“失去的东西本就不属于我们。

　
那我们怎么才会珍惜呢？有空时我们因该想。。。
　　
想想，如果我们失去这样的一个他/她结局将会是怎样。。。

是否会。。。

2011-09-24T15:03:00.000+08:00

等待，你是否会出现。

奇迹，它是否会发生。

爱情，它是否会来领。

伤害，它是否会痊愈。

生气，你是否会气消。

离开，你是否会伤心。

担心，你是否会知道。

道歉，你是否会原谅。

爱你，你是否会接受。

分开，你是否会回来。

期望，你是否会爱我。

在不知不觉中我爱上了你。

不知不觉的我不能没有你。

你的冷落让我陷入伤心绝望中。

2011-09-24T00:51:00.002+08:00

我知道自己没有去爱一个人的权利，但爱情往往都是突然发生的。

每一段恋情让我慢慢地发现到原来爱情不属于我。

我试着逃避爱情，但不管这样逃，爱情始终还是找上我。

我想这次一切都结束了吧。因为我又让你生气了。

说出来怕失去你，不说还是失去你。

结果都是失去你，那又何必让我遇上你。

到头来我也只是爱情的傀儡，爱情的玩偶，爱情中的牺品。

这次我真的输了。

我开始害怕爱情了，再也不相信它了。

或许从以前到现在，这世上根本没有属于我的那份爱情。

寂寞和孤单对我来说从不陌生，我对它们也没恐惧。

这几年我都是一个人走到这里，现在只不过是回到原点罢了。

我的心好痛好痛，但我早已习惯这感觉了。

或许以后再也没人叫我笨蛋了吧，剩下的就是你所留下的地回忆。

你可以在叫我笨蛋多一次吗？

因为你。。。

2011-09-22T22:01:00.001+08:00

因为你。。。

不管在没胃口，我也会至少次一点点。

不管在精神，我也会至少睡一点点。

不管路多苦，我也会坚持到底。

不管多伤心，我也会笑着度过。

不管在寂寞，我也不会感到孤单。

不管多久，我也不会轻易放弃。

不管多想哭，我也会仍这类。

不管距离多远，我也会慢慢的把她缩短。

不管你有多讨厌我，我也会慢慢的感动你。

不管37241，我就是爱你1314。

不管别人怎么说，我还是选择相信你。

。。。快乐就在不远处

我和你的故事

2011-09-18T20:07:00.000+08:00

我输了，彻彻底底的输了在这篇文章的最后我将以句点对着美丽的故事画上最美好的结局, 这看似漫长，却又在短暂中结束的故事真是美好，这一次我将把这一页文章彻彻底底的封闭起来，再见了属于我人生的这一页篇章，我不知道我何时还会在绝续把你写完，但我知道不是现在，再见了祝福你快乐。p.s:我会躲在某个角落守护着你。

that smile of yours

2011-09-12T21:17:00.001+08:00

Remembering back what make me noticed you,it is that smile of yours.I swear to protect that smile of yours.I promise to be the painter of that smile.Creator of your laughter.giver of your joy.But now you lose all those things, and i can't do anything.I never know others problem could affect me so much, till you came.Looking at how sad you are, i was shock there is nothing i can do.Where is the power you given me my lord?Why is it that in front of the one i love, i couldn't do anything?Could you help me out this once? let me have what it takes to find back her :).Let me walk into her heart.I am willing to sacrifice for her smile.Be it giving up being with her i will.Teach me my lord what to do?i wanna fulfill my dedication to her.

the long conceal soul of mine. the darkest side of me.

2011-09-11T18:26:00.000+08:00

Just when i thought i could seal it forever, the seal is broken.

For all this while i didn't post doesn't mean i am fine, it just means that for the past few while i am strong enough to withstand the blow.

But now i am hit hard, hard in a way i never thought will hurt me so much.16th of Aug-I am not sure if i added you on this day, but at least i know this is the time i start to talk to you.

When i first notice you in facebook while surfing one of the facebook group, i knew i wanna be your friend as close as i could. in facts i wanna be your future.

Therefore here i go being thick faced to talk to you almost everyday as long as you are online.But lucky enough, heaven provide me with another door...

17th of Aug-

While telling you that, "Ha ha ya:) so now I can chat more often with you cool:)".

You replied me with, "Haha. True true. Can text me My number is 9273 1818".

So here begin my journey of knowing you:)...

I told myself not to sms you everyday,so as to avoid irritating you or what.

But i know i can't control my urge, i just keep sms you when i need someone to talk to.

I talk to you every single day so as to get closer with you. i wanna be with you.

10th of Sept-13 days

I couldn't hold it anymore so i drop a hint to you telling you 爱老虎油.

Lucky you didn't get what i mean, because...

On later of the day while chatting with you, i accidentally found out that you have a boyfriend for 13 days already.

This is it, is it the end of you and me?

I get that strong heartache feeling again, when i ended with Weiyu, Gina and Wenqi.

It the pain from hell.

For a moment i couldn't take it, but after awhile i manage to walk out of it and acted normal and chat with you again.

11th of Sept-14 days

I decided not to give up, i wanna be b your side.

Be it friend, good friend or even your guardian angel.

I knew seeing you be with your boyfriend will be hard, but i know i can do it because i did it before.

In the past i chose to give up on Evon and treated her as my little sister, back then i walk out of her life because i am not strong.

But now i am stronger, i wanna be by your side.

I wanna be the first to be there when you are sad.

I wanna lend you my ear, to listen to your sorrow.

I wanna lend you my shoulder, to cry out all the sadness.

I wanna lend you my shirt, to wide those tears of unhappiness away.

I wanna be there when you needed someone, i don,t wanna miss it and ended up too late like Evon did.

I wanna be your giver of joy, when you are sad.

I wanna be your creator of laughter, when you are crying.

I wanna be your painter of :) when you are :(

I wanna be there as long as you still need me.

I wanna be your guardian angel, the one who watch after you.

I wish that you will be my forever, when i says I LOVE YOU.

Stella be brave and pursue what you want.

Because i will always be there to look after your back.

Whenever you need someone, i will always be the first.

Go for your happiness, i will be right here waiting for you.

2011-09-08T22:16:00.002+08:00

things is getting bad to worse. if you think him alone is not enough to kill then here come the killer. when we just get together we swear to be united and do things our way, but over the times many fail to do what they promise in the end causing more conflict. now how will this thing end?

losing control

2011-07-18T23:00:00.000+08:00

i'm losing it im losing control. the seal is going to be broken soon. i know my anger going to be release soon. after all that happen nowadays. for all this year the seal you leave on me has been sealing away my anger but now it is going to be release again. im so tired of life nowadays i need some rest i need rest i cant go on anymore.

2010-10-10T00:39:00.000+08:00

is life being fair or not? i guess from the start this is the way how the world is being fair. fairness exist in such a way that some of us might feel we are being treated unfairly but to the world we are.

like today well i been waiting for very long to go night safari with pear but ended up i wasnt even told but her that i will be going with her. instead she is going with her other friend.

i wasnt mad at her. instead im happy for her that she can go to the night safari for the first time. is it fun? i wonder when will my turn come. im so mad at myself some times for having no time to spend with her,im mad at myself for being a coward. im mad cause i dont have the courage to tell you i like you, and for being useless not asking for your hands.

some how i just cant bring myself to be mad at you. i simply just want you to be happy the rest it doesnt matter to me anymore or i want is a smile from you that it the rest doent seem important at all.

i realise being in camp i got no worries to think about everyday training so tire reach bunk just feel like sleeping. i wonder if that the life i want? if so i should just sign on. then i will be problem free.

will we ever be possible? can i even stop this friendship from sinking?? do i have what it takes not to be a loner?

2010-02-02T18:33:00.000+08:00

当我决定忘记我和你之间的回忆时我也决定把这拥有我们之间的空间给关掉。再见了。

男人不坏，女人不爱。

2010-01-27T21:41:00.000+08:00

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俗话说，男人不坏，女人不爱。这句话说得是事实还是说它就是一个没根据的一句废话。

IF this sentence is true does it mean that girls really like guys that are bad??if yes? than bad in what way??since stealing is bad,killing also bad.since the definition of bad is so wide, how do who we know that which kind of BAD boy attract the opposite gender.

or shall we shift the topic to the girls.under what situation will the girls prefer bad boys than good guys??what are the factors??does being bad really have those attractive aura that just attract people to them? but bad boys always hurt them and they just treat it as a normal thing? is this even worth it?

人人多说爱情是盲目的...
but blind until the extend that even if they are treated so unfairly they can just bear with it and let it go?OH hello wakey wakey that isnt call love that is call errr STUPID.slap yourself hard, open the big eyes and start the brain think about it what they do to you is it really LOVE or is it call SELFISH?

爱应该是自私和占有的吗？
by doing that is it really love??by doing that is he really doing the girl good??after all this does it still come back to the conclusion that girls will prefer bad boys than good guys.

难道说女生们所寻找的就是短暂的美好？
也就是说男生们只要在追求女生那一刻把他们当成公主就好了吗？
追到后就可以把她们当成女佣了吗？
难道这就是他们所谓的快乐吗？
为了这样的快乐而牺牲值得吗？

2010-01-22T04:07:00.003+08:00

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it been 15 yrs since you left me how have you been mum i suppose you muz be having a good time after all heaven is a place of joy.

but im not having a good time down here im so suffering i miss u i need ur shoulder to cry on im juz a normal guy i need to cry too i still cant find anyone to cry on so now im still using doggie.it ur death anniversary today i guess dad muz be sad but maybe lesser now compare it to 15 yrs ago.i rmb that day when u die everyone was crying except menot becuz im not sad it becuz i tht u will juz slping why is there a need to cry.in the it ended up that u nvr ever go home again.

i rmb wher u pass away dad cry out with tears covering the whole face.back at home he lock himself in the room crying looking at ur photo there isnt anything i can do cause i dunno wat to do.sry mum that i only knw when is ur death anniversary till few yrs ago when i saw ur death cert.all this yr dad nvr bai bai you all wat i guess he dun wan to be remind of those sad days.mum tc of urself and me down here i will try to tc of myself too look after me bless me:)

ohhh maybe u can ask yue lao to match make me with lynn lolz or maybe ....or .... haha bb see ya again nxt yr mum huggie may this yr be a btr one

2009-12-22T22:17:00.002+08:00

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100th posts

2009-12-18T02:28:00.002+08:00

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This is the 100th posts of my blog i thought of closing down the blog but im not sure yet and dont expect it to be a happy one cause ever since i posted my first unhappiness in this blog it means this blog will just go on and be a sad blog.

It has been many days since i send you the letter and i think you must have read the letter.But somehow i felt regretted telling you how i feel cause i know after reading it you mus be worrying about me now.And yes what i written in the letter is true but dont worry about me.

just finish watching a show just now and remind me of us in the past.i am wondering what if 5 years ago i ask you to stay and you did.Than i wonder where will i be now will things be different.when you left you told me there are better girls out there.and true i find some good girls out there but i didnt go for them one by one they appear and one by one i give up cause i know im not good enough right now. evon,jesline and lynn all of them will make good Gf for sure but one by one i give up. evon is a good Gf to anyone caring and know how to cook but when i know her she just get her to avoid losing a good friend i treat her my little sister instead never telling her i like her.

Well but people do make mistake isnt it?before jesline and lynn i get to know gina.my last stead the one i hurt the most i guess.she the only one i didnt give up and i did do what i promise her.when i knew her at first she said she doesnt trust guys anymore and i say to her one day i will put trust back into her dictionary again and yes i did it but that become the thing that i hurt her the most.As the last word she told me is"no i dont trust you anymore" never will i expect that the one who given her trust ME also the one who take it away from her.

after that is jesline and lynn.jesline i known her for about 3 years she is a good girl.i decide to give up cause of that night.that night dont what we do we ended up acting as me talk with her dad.the reason i give up is because she asked me "can you make her happy?"my answer to her is no with no delay.i knew at that point of time i still cant give anyone happiness so i gave up.

i think i should give up on lynn too.she so kind:) although she kept bully me but i think other than that she is a good person *thumbs up:) in the first place she say she got love phobia i thought maybe i can help her to take away that but it remind me of Gina im scare i will ended up taking it away and give it to her AGAIN.what should i do i know she will be happy for me to give up.

But all i ask for now is to be friends with them as long as i can:)well although they never ever remember or did what they promise to me but i guess i still cant bear to leave them i want to stay by them to wipe of their tears and draw their smile everyday.

[once again for you guys i will wipe your tears and draw a smile on akk of you whenever you guys need me.whatever promise make just forget it i dont care about it anymore as long as you guys are HAPPY]

2009-12-07T19:27:00.002+08:00

[在这样下去我一定会永远的失去我那灿烂的笑容。我不知道我还能撑多久。]

2009-12-05T20:48:00.004+08:00

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im all alone at home now.and yes im feeling lonely again so lonely why dun i have anyone to talk to when i feel lonely. i scroll my phone book and i notice i only got one to talk to when i feel down but she not by me now she is currently oversea now.i rmb i mention that there are some people i wan to say sorry to and yes she is the one and yes if time can go back i will ask you to stay.back then she choose to leave cause of her family that what i thought but months ago i just find out the other reason she decide to leave is cause nobody ask her to stay.but in fact i did thought of asking her to stay but back then we just friends i just know her not long do i even have the right to ask her stay behind for me cause i like her.and before i knew she have left and we lost contact for awhile.how nice if only i have ask her to stay.at least now i have her to pour my tears on.and i guess she the only one i dare to cry in front of.

for this 14 yrs i been fighting on my own against my own fate i lost 1 2 3 4 5 many times to him and i stand up but i still i continue to lost to him i know i cant win but i will try if miracle won happen on me than i shall create my own miracle.and one day maybe i might just win against my fate.and by then my burden might have gone le. all this while i been fighting on my own with the fake side of me i use violent to protect myself but when mrs ang i promise you to study hard and stay out of gang stuff i did try but i fail you i manage to stay out of gangs but i cant start my brain to work any more after that time.the only time it work is when i want to thank you with my result and i did get top 3 but after that brain dead again.im sorry i didnt keep my temper for my first 2 yrs of sec life.i just cant stop hiding the facts that im weak too i need a shoulder a ear as well.but at least now i no longer use violent as a way to protect myself now.but after that i use a more cruel way.sorry i just cant start my brain for my own sake.

after that i used a more cruel way to protect myself.i remember it when i say 薛海 appear. yes in the past when i got hurt in BGR i turn flirt i hurts the others.but after that i realise this isnt what i want this isnt the reason why i want a girlfriend.i want a girlfriends because i wan someone to dote and pamper on.not to hurt them so i give up this as a cover and i use laughter as protection instead but im still hurt i do i really do.

do you still rmb ur promise to me a meal??
you dun huh...
in facts when u first make that promise i nvr ever expect u to keep it.
you not the first and not the last.
even if you dun keep ur promise
but if that make you happier than make it
i will bear the sadness of you breaking it alone

零蛋you feeling sian now but i cant entertain her i feel so weak now i really wan entertain you make you smile once a day to keep the unhappiness away.

[how about you will you keep urs??if u make this just to make me happy at that moment only.i will tell you it ok for you not to keep ur promise to me. i won be mad at you :)i still like you alot.]

2009-12-03T02:17:00.004+08:00

i juz feel a sudden sense of loneliness i dunno wat to do.how do i move on from here i dunno im so sick and tired of wearing a mask to face everyone but without those mask i will break down for sure wat should i do now im lose.can i let go my burdens now can i??

im tired i juz wan to rest the other doesnt matter to me anymore maybe i juz have to keep on bearing those burdens i have so much to say to them but there is this one thing in comment i have to say to them im realli SORRY. can time ever goes back??

[what should i do now??move on or just wait??]

2009-11-26T01:31:00.004+08:00

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OMGGGGGGGGG pls pls pls pls lynnnnn i didnt mean to put you plane the i realli realli plan to on9 and chat with you the.ytd i started my day goin to the MOH than after that i go to JE lib to return book when i reach there my frenz ask me wan acc my other frenz go settle early enlistment ma i was think hmmmmmm awhile onli still can make it home to chat with you than i say ok.after that my on train my frenz say after that he wan go back JE cut hair than i think hmmm awhile niaz ok lorz so we go to settle the NS thing le than my frenz jacky who is the one settling the NS thing suddenly ask ltr wan do wat?? wan watch movie ma?? when we reject him he say than go sing K la than i see time so early i say ok lorz so we sing sing sing and my frenz jacky and our frenz junwei wth totally out of tune siaz zzz. so after that when finish le i tht ehh can go home chat with you le:) but they say go watch movie la go watch raging Phoenix i say dun wan la i need go home by 8 to chat with lynn the than jun wei shoot me say waa haven start already ps frenz le stead le how ps frenz more leiz(like my friend garry).than ok lorz go watch.than in train when jp i realise my MP3 nvr take i left it at clementi party world so i tell them go back take la than go home le nxt time than watch la in the end jacky psyco me say dun la tml than take la HAIZ so in the end ltr than i go take lorz ended up nvr get to chat with you.after the movie i take bus home when i reach the bus stop i run home in less than a min i reach home le than on9 find you you go le it was ard 0000 that time haiz i really wan to chat with you the lorz so long nvr chat le:(in the ended like that sorry i didnt mean to bluff you the.all along i rmb that i promise u i will chat withyou the but last min keep havin so many plan to do so ended up home late so sad now la cant chat with YOU:( anw ltr i will be on9 to wait for you the whole day until im sure that u won on9 le than i go to slp if not is becuz i go take my MP3 so i didnt on9 but after that i will rush home an on9 to wait for you de.SORRY i didnt mean to bluff you than nvr on9.

2009-11-24T12:00:00.003+08:00

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im so so so sick now ytd worse.ytd i finally clear my test le.so happy can work again le i spend abt 300+ i think on juz the medical bill im so poor now la zzz.ytd night when to watch 2012 lik so FINALLY la haha.the cinema is so damn cold la i was shivering siaz and my frenz is fighting with flood lolz. the worse part is i have a serious headache ytd and still go and enjoy air-con siaz zzz make it worse after the movie i was so giddy when i reach home i faster go thke a warm bath ahhh so warm.after that on9 awhile realise 零蛋 nvr on9 le so i go slp le.SO SAD nvr chatted ytd make her miss me feel so bad LOLZ hope tml i will get btr afterall i still have to go down to MOH tml tata.ohhh and i muz really find time to reply her letter le if not she sure going to NAG at me AHHHHHHhhhhhhhhh nooooo write write write.

ohhh and and and零蛋 the song is for you the siaz muz listen finish it worz kk LISTEN to it la OKAY and and and 2012 is coming le leiz hehe u knw wat u say rmb ma?tata TC

2009-11-21T22:11:00.001+08:00

hmmm i think the same think is going to happen again le well i got not choice if it realli happen i juz have to accept it.im glad i get to knw you tc cheer up worz nxt time when u sad find ppl chat with u bb my another frenz

2009-11-20T00:41:00.003+08:00

this week hasnt really have much different in life.but guess what this week isnt that bad after all cause i got 2 surprise for me one is i receive a letter from weiyu from America.this is one big surprise cause i didnt except her to write to me first if i never write to her but she did WOW.at first i still didnt notice it cause the letter is written to my sister.only when my sis tell me she write to me then i realise is her and rmb that she cant write to guy so the letter is to my sister.

2nd surprise is from BESTIE(i dun wan be her bestie)she suppose to be working later so i wasnt expecting her to be on9.and i was planning that i should wake up at 4 to wait for her on9 to chit chat with her to surprise her.haha in the end she surprise me first by going on9 at 8 heez.2 days never with her le siaz so longgggggg la it is lik she mia for 2 days like that.plus those 2 days i didnt get to make her smile and she break with her stead le.dunno she sad ma but i guess i did cheer her up today??or did i give her more burden ehhh hmmm...

let hope thing will get btr for me 3 cheers to jiawei

2009-11-16T15:06:00.001+08:00

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oink knio goin mia soon i tht i should do the same to sort thing out but i dun even knw what to do or rather i dunno wat is the pro so how do i find the solution??can i realli come to a point that i can put everything down and move on i doubt so i knw no matter what i do there is onli ONE and onli ending for me it not that im afraid to make a choice but rather it is that i DUN wan to make a choice.if realli can how i wish im back to 4 yrs old when i haven loses anyone yet but if i will to stuck there i won gain any nakama as well.i guess this world as no perfection.think i should juz leave things as it is now.dun make any decision juz let things go his own way.

my tummy so pain zzz especially when i sneeze so hope i dun sneeze but i got a cold zzz

2009-11-16T01:30:00.001+08:00

hmmm maybe lik lynn said i should go mia as well to sort out thing ahhh but sort out wat hmmm i duno.lazy think aso feel so sick now btr go slp le tml need wake up weeeeee a date with pig

烦烦烦烦烦

2009-11-15T15:59:00.003+08:00

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烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦烦。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

我现在很很很不快乐，别问我为什么因为我也不知道。也许是因为这世界在也没有什么能使我快乐了吧。
还是别想那么多好了.

lynn is still waiting for me heez so chat with her ba:)i am so going to make her smile too today:)

random

2009-11-11T00:46:00.002+08:00

having someone to listen to your problems is such a good thing.like lynn she is sad today and she got so many people to care for her so envious of that,and i didnt get to cheer her up today cause im not needed.haha. i wonder when will it be turn to be like lynn to have someone to listen to me it might be never but i guess im already use to facing this world alone le so maybe it might not make any different to me.

once a loner must i always be a loner?do i get to talk to anyone again when i feel down??after they left i have no one to turn to will they return?no for some,the rest??im not sure.will there be anyone to replace them??i dont know and i will never know but the world wouldnt stop rotating for me so i guess meanwhile i just have to face things on my own

JIAYOU jiawei.dont forget the promises you make to them live on without any regrets continue to bring joy, laughter and smile to others ba.

想你的习惯 - 小宇

2009-11-10T01:45:00.005+08:00

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想一个人并不孤单，
等一个人并不孤单，
一个人站在世界的最顶峰也并不孤单，
只有当一个人站在这世界的最阴暗处是他才会变得孤单。
因为人类都害怕着面对黑暗的那一刻。
而我也渐渐的在往那个世界最阴暗的深处前进。

有一个属于你的聆听者有多好啊。但我相信我是永远都找不到那个属于我的聆听者的。
这几年以来我从来没有赢过那个所谓的命运。所以现在的我也相信，自己是不可能会击败命运的。
这几年来不管我怎样做结局永远就只有一个那就是。。

渐渐的我也变得害怕做出任何的选择。因为不管我怎么选，我的选择好像永远都是错的。因为这样我开始害怕做出选择。我开始逃避这个世界，这个世界的所有都已经成为了我的恐惧。因为害怕而不敢做出决定，我开始慢慢得让自己变笨变得迟钝只是为了让自己躲过那所谓的人生选择。

为了生存我把自己伪装成一个小丑。靠着他人的欢笑而使自己继续的前进。

i admit i do concern and miss her.and it true that YES im falling for her when i know i should not.i guess it just time it too bad i know her at the wrong time.there nothing i can do now other than staying by her side be there when she need me i know i might never be the first one she will think of when she is sad but at least im the last in the world im sure of than if she really need to talk to someone.seeing other guys to have such a good GF like lynn and evon i do envy of them,what worse is i dont know why some guy just never know how to cherish such good GF they even willing to let them go.when they already have the best.evon mei mei is such a good GF who will cook for the BF.while lynn oink knio is the kind who will never abandon her BF no matter how bad the BF treat or ignore her.as long as i still can give joy create laughter and paint a smile on u girls i will look after you 2 the shoulder are for u to cry on the ear are for hearing your story。what i promise them i remember as long as im still around i will remember them,even if u forgotten what you promise to me i will not mind about it.

currently sick and down with some disease it not deadly but sometime how i hope it is.im stress im sad im depress till the standard that i even ask this what if one day when im gone how many people will be there to shear their tears for me when some have migrate to the heaven and some lost contact and some became a stranger who i understand the most.im tired how long must i wear the mask of clown i dont know but as long as im still breathing i guess i must continue my mission.

this song is for you.you the one i miss the one i hope to look afer the one who i wish to guard the one who i wish to share you sorrow and bring u joy.

misses

2009-10-26T21:34:00.002+08:00

ohhhhhhhhhh i miss her but she is back le BUT i nvr chat with her much yet so fair haiz so boring life without her got so many things wanna ask her.

anyway i think i should be goin to slp soon since i need to go to communicable disease centre. after i been cfm with some dunno wat disease.

zzz in short i miss LYNNNNNNNNNN laughter hahahahahahahah lolz LOLZ LOLZ :) :D :P

counting down

2009-10-24T21:55:00.002+08:00

zzz as usual today is so boringgggggg la i miss ahem siaz she not ard nobody to shoot me noboday talk to me yawnz so sianz la haiz but i guess even if she nvr go camp i aso bored de cause she sure will go out CHIONG de la since her exam over le.anw tml mornin she will be back le YEAHZ *clap clap for her heez.wonder if she enjoy herself or all this while she has be worrying.hmmm anw let see tml can see her on9 ma
haha
still time stick with her and chat till i song le la haha psss i miss you siaz zzzz well now nth to do i guess go slp hao le de earlier i slp de earlier tml come ma heez yes yes here i come sunday hooray lolz this is the first time i hope sunday faster come siaz.and soon me and lynn will die tgt LOLZ haha tata here i come beddy bed sweet bed night zhu zhu lynn sweet dreams *yawn

无可取代-大嘴巴

2009-10-23T20:18:00.003+08:00

无可取代...

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today lynn will not be online FOR SURE....because she is in camp now. Im wondering if she is enjoying her camp now?hmmm how her's stead and her's problem? solve le ma??yesterday when i heard she is worry about her stead when he tio daiji i wanted to help but she rejected and i guess maybe during this incident they will grow closer and the BF will know how much lynn like him so i never insist of helping her le in the end i go to sleep not bothering her.hmmm hey zhu zhu sec 3 camp only come once in a life time only leiz please enjoy la i hope both of them is fine.i hope they will grow closer and stay stronger together from now on. after all i guess now he is the only one who controls her happiness now ba. all i can do i just stay by her if she need jokes im there i will always be her 24/7 clown:) a clown that will not be replace.well since she is not her i guess i should worry about the other one ba.

hmmmmm evon evon man she break up with her BF just few days before O lvl wth is the BF think at this time this moment destroy her future.come on she already repeated 1 year i dun want to see her repeating another year some more is O lvl year.well i cant ask her how she is cause it is obvious she acting as nothing is happening in front of me i dun wan to 才穿 her so i guess one day when she really cant take it anymore she will tell me the ba.

haiz both lynn and evon are such good GF but why are their BF not cherishing them i dun understand why i so envious of them having such good GF but they like taking it for granted.i guess i will stay by them from now on be the one they can depend on when they need a ear to listen them when they need a shoulder to cry on when they need a shirt to wipe their tears.

jiayou worz evon xiao bu dian mei mei and lynn zhu zhu lolz my beloved haha im sure you two will find your happiness de dun give up(hmm can i be lynn happiness??hmmm guess never will ba).

PARACHO

2009-10-22T15:43:00.003+08:00

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猪猪 cheer up:).i watch this show and they have this word call PARACHO it a secret code between the mother and the son.for them it means jia you.猪猪 let us use this too ba:) haha let it be our secret this time round let it meaning be jia you to for us so 猪猪 P.A.R.A.C.H.O :) psss when you read this and when you are back to normal tell me PARACHO too k:) dont be sad le you still got me although i am nothing to you haha but still i am here for you PARACHO:)

MV

2009-10-21T21:31:00.008+08:00

CHEER UP LYNN 猪猪

猪猪不快乐：（ i think i did try to make her smile but fail i think??hmmm out of jokes le??lolz or outdated le than all the jokes she hear be4 le so not funny liao.猪猪lolz i knw you got read this heez dun sad le if you are I am here just pour whatever bother you here 好吗??let me share your sorrow let me put the smile to you let me take away all the unhappy things.dont keep everything to yourself dont give up.you not alone you got me.no matter what when you need people to talk to or cheer you up can find me no need scare the im more than willing to hear you:) so dont worry that you will be a burden to me k?

i know you give up on BGR but close friend like bestie that all i ask from you.you dont have to accept me as bestie now but for sure i will work my way up slowly.one day i will be your bestie too someone who you can cry in front of someone who you can depend on as well.i know you find it crazy by that life many unexpected thing happen knowing me is the BEST thing that going to happen to YOU.LOLZ.

well dont think too much le worz if need any help can sms to:94483052
he is a world class listener and world class smile painter,laughter creator and joy giver:) take care during your camp worz dont fall sick le if not camp wouldnt be fun le.

you are my angel.

2009-10-20T15:58:00.002+08:00

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so long nong never chat with LYNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN le la feel so bored and hmmm empty???just when i thought that i will not be falling for anyone i started to chat with zhu zhu again and i find BIG tummy so cute la haha kidding actually i like her for who she is i think i really jealous of the boyfriend for having such a GOOD girlfriend.too bad he doesnt seem to really treat her good.hey you better start to treat her good ba before you lose her and but than crying over a spill milk will be useless le.

i guess YES i kind off attract to her,hmmm everyday i will go online just to see whether she is online or not so that i can chat with her.go to her blog everyday no matter i tired or free or not so that i can be updated of her life whether anything sad happen to her or not.but i guess she is a HAPPY girl she wouldnt be sad the ba.anyway even if she is around her she got so many good friends im sure they are more than will to lend her their ears the.if not psss lynn u always got me as the last option my ear are all ready to be flood by your words:).

hmmm,but come to think of it being this close to her i guess it enough le.i shouldnt have ask for more if not history shall repeat itself again and by then i will be the loser again i can never ever win over my destiny.so i guess just be GOOD FRIEND with her is enough le ba i guess im so going to be single after all.hey you stay faithful to your boyfriend la dont keep thinking that you two are going to break soon le la.come on you 2 only 1 month only and it is the HONEYMOON period you know.and i know that time you say hmmm when you back to single than you not going into a BGR again and only you can stay single.hmmm but i also going to be single what can you do huh HUH HUH :P bleahz i want nobody nobody but YOU haha:)im so going to be single longer than you:)

ohhh and and EVONNNN zzz just when i thought she is going to be fine she break up with her BF haiz poor xiao bu dian she didnt even tell me i guess she really really is hurt but dont want people to know that why she hope that people wouldnt ask her about it ba.

haiz why are faithful people always not being cherish like lynn and evon they are both such GOOD and WONDERFUL girlfriend but their stead just never know it wonder how they will feel when they loses them. take care worz you 2 need me im always there for you 2 the:) should go sleep now le so sick siaz this morning and keep feeling tired people say that this is what a dying people feel before they die. so sick so many health problems zzz poor me take care worz nights jiawei:)

所以

2009-10-11T20:45:00.002+08:00

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以前以前曾经听过这一首歌，但也曾经的遗忘过这首歌。不过今天我和这首歌又重逢了。这首歌让我想起了过去我想保护的那个她和现在我想守护的那个她。

过去的那个她看似已经找到她的幸福了我为她感到高兴。不过我还是会胆心怕她会再一次的被伤害。现在的我再也不能给任何人幸福的感觉了所以现在我只希望J先生能带给她快乐让她再一次的相信男人。不要再让她受伤害了。之前我回放手不是因为我不再爱她了而是因为只有这样只做她才能得到真正的快乐和幸福。说以我选择默默地离去在那遥远的远方继续守着你。

现在的那个她已经有了男友。就算喜欢也不能去破毁。因为现在的她很快乐我不想把她的快乐给带走。我不能把我心里想说的话对她所以我只好把我想说的话都放在心里。因为我只想要她开心。只要现在的她开心我任何事都愿意去做。我会默默的守护着你，当你需要我的依靠时，只要你转个身就会看见其实我一直都在你的身后守护着你。

我想现在的我对爱情已经失去了信心，因为我再也不能给任何人幸福了。所以我能做的就只有守护着你了。您愿意让我看守着你吗？

谢谢你了jun 和 yongjun因为你们我从新的看见前面的道路了。让我们一起前进吧一起守护着我们所爱着的那个女生吧。

小丑

2009-10-05T19:09:00.004+08:00

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对我来说我觉得人类是为了彼此而活得。所以每个人类活在这世界有理由的。那就是完成他们在这世上的任务。而我的任务因该就是她们的聆听者和小丑。

i appear in their life is to help them but for some i cant help but fall for them and in the end the worse happen.i read her blog recently i wonder what happen but i cant ask her i feel vexed for her.i remember back when i try to woo her she say she dont trust guys,she say if want to stead with her must show her sincerity,than i told her i promise her that i will write the word TRUST in her dictionary to prove my sincerity....

In the end,i did it BUT at the same time i think i happen to take it away from her too accidentally.during our relationship period we trusted each other as much as we even let each other know our ATM card password and eventually even let each other keep it.how have you been???it has been 5 month 5 days since we become stranger to each other how have you been?

after this relationship i never stay away from any girls who need my ears my jokes.cause that what i meant to be.even if i know maybe one day i will fall for one of them but still i wouldnt avoid them for i will be here for them as long as they need me.even if after that they will forget me but still i will be by their side.

recently been in very low mood but i cant show or tell anyone.i have to wear my clown smile cause i am a clown i only bring joy laughter and happiness to other people never tears or unhappiness.

today actually dont plan to talk to lynn the cause not in a good mood dont won influence her but when i on9 awhile that time i saw her online i cant control myself i really wan chit chat with her so talk to her awhile:) after that i go bath le cause dont want to let her got chance to put:) this. haha she say when she dont know what to reply she will put this.i want our conversation to be perfect only laughter so i decided to go bath cool down than come out talk to her in the end she gone le.zzz haha never mind at least wouldnt have to scare i spoil her mood.

我好想好想就这样的一直守护在她的身边。每天在msn上逗她开心逗她笑就算能让她100%快乐的不是我但至少我能让她得到那1%的快乐。如果音乐是她快乐的泉源的话那我希望这世界永远的有音乐因为我要一辈子的把快乐法送给她。就这样我就已经满足了。

i want to be her,
giver of joy
creator of laughter and
painter of smile

我要成为你心灵深处的聆听者。虽然在你有心事时我不会是你所想到的第一个但至少我会是你所想到的最后一个

我会成为你黑暗中的灯光，沙漠里的泉源，音乐里的符号，悲伤中的快乐，哭泣中的微笑，即使帮不上忙我也会静静的坐在你身旁支持你 0(n_n)0

2009-10-04T19:45:00.002+08:00

first of all just wanna say on friday pamela talk to me.hmmm that was like so SURPRISE? cause we dont really know each other much i know her only because of gina and i only seem her once.anyway it is not like i mind.cause she actually talk to me about her problems waa that so cool i cant help her.i like helping people.

through the years helped so many people now i guess so more people no need me anymore le.like evon mei mei she grown up le no need me le she and her bf are getting more stable le.i guess the only problem left is her relationship with her elder sis.

jeslynn mei mei leiz she juz havin some teenagers problems onli la lik she will fall for others guys is not realli bein unfaithful is juz tat her age dunno wat is love yet so whoever treat her good she will have a crush on him.so no big pro.case close.

ohhh and tatiana she went MIA hmmm dunno how she been.zzz hope she is ok won get cheated by guys again le jiayou all

今天不知道为了什么事，我觉得好烦啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊烦烦烦烦烦要找LYNN聊天但是她不在家zzz i wan chat with her lalalalalalalalaaaaaaaaaaa so long nvr chat le haiz
hao fan arhz actually wan type out dunno wat ahhh brain die zzz haiz

的天灾

2009-10-01T21:02:00.003+08:00

30/09/09 的天灾。。。

一天之内尽有10个不同的天灾，看来这个世界是真的病了。难道说这世界真的即将结束了吗？人类难道真的没有任何的感觉吗？难道世界末日即将来领了他们都不管了吗？难道他们不想为这世界找出治疗的方法吗？

今天和 lynn 聊聊了一会。我觉得她真的真的太没信心了啦。老是往坏的方面想是不对的啦。傻瓜你们一定可以的长长久久的。不要再想太多了。如果有一天我MIA了请你不要去找别的人拿歌好吗？一定要等我回来啊。

还有就是jesline的包包希望我可以帮她买到然后再送给她当礼物。但是我该这样问她到底喜欢那种颜色呢。
hmmmmmmmm....

心灵的死角

2009-09-30T22:20:00.003+08:00

心灵的死角。。。

这个世上有很多很美丽的世物，不是我们无法看见而是我们自己选择看不见。就像早上的日出时那么的美丽啊。可是发现它存在的人有几个呢？？？难道人类真的只有在失去了之后才会懂得开始去珍惜吗？好烦啊。。。有谁可以陪陪我聊天呢？

我突然发现我自己好像越来越爱她了。不等等嘉玮啊您不可以爱上她的，真的不可以。但是我偏偏又一天天的爱上她了，不可以爱但又爱上她了真烦。算了只要不去追就不会有事了吗。为什么我会爱上一个不该爱的人呢。

总之，我现在只想默默的守护着她我就已经开心了。只要你不快了我一定会成为你的开心果豆泥笑得。

迷失的我

2009-09-27T20:15:00.001+08:00

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hieez bloggy long time nvr visit you le how have you been??

我又出事了。我又站在我生命中的另一个分叉口了。这次的我又要做出另一个选择了吗。这次我该往哪里走呢？是往左还是往右或者是直走？？我已经失去了我的人生的方向感了。我唯一知道的是我不能再往回走了。
得到的东西会失去，但失去的东西或许再也找不回来了。我所要的未必是对的我该如何做出这选择呢。我再也不要失去任何我关心的人了。我不敢去爱你因为我怕失去你但是我又扁扁的爱上你我该如何做出选择阿。不过现在得你恨快乐我不想去破坏。
我要成为你心灵深处的聆听者。虽然在你有心事时我不会是你所想到的第一个但至少我会是你所想到的最后一个。
我会成为你黑暗中的灯光，沙漠里的泉源，音乐里的符号，悲伤中的快乐，哭泣中的微笑，即使帮不上忙我也会静静的坐在你身旁支持你。 0(n_n)0
不能爱你我不会觉得可惜。因为至少我还在你的身边。
让我成为您的守护天使好吗？

weiyu,gina,jesline,jeslynn,lynn,tatiana and evon i knw some of you hav pro now.lik i say i will lend u my ear if u need it i will watch over you guys i wan u guys to have de joy i nvr will get to enjoy.

it has been awhile gina how have you been??im so glad that when im with u i mak one correct decision.and tat not to selfishly keep u with me and away from ur poly frenz.cause at least now you have many frenz in poly le:) and im sure you will enjoy ur life there too de jiayou worz GINA:)

coffee madness

2009-08-30T15:59:00.004+08:00

are you coffee lover??look at wat other country have in their creative coffee.would you lik to have a taste of it too??

maybe wat we need in life sometime is juz abit of creativity to enjoy our life or maybe even the key to our problems.

不痛

2009-07-28T16:57:00.002+08:00

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不痛
主唱:周笔畅

我还在相信你太自然的谎言
以为幸福还有可能实现
你的心总有另一面我看不见
我依然把你当做是我的天
你愿意保留给我的时间在递减
你却说这和爱不爱都没有关联
我不懂我们还是不是同心圆
如果心变了怎么会不明显
你的爱早已经不同我的心缺了一个洞
我像是失去心跳的不倒翁动也不能动
你的爱我已经不懂我的爱没有用
如果你问起我假装不痛
我们的回忆弄掉了我都不敢捡
你渐渐的改变是暂时还是永远
我不懂我们还是不是同心圆
如果心变了怎么会不明显
你的爱早已经不同我的心缺了一个洞
我像是失去心跳的不倒翁动也不能动
你的爱我已经不懂我的爱没有用
如果你问起我假装不痛
你施舍的寂寞让我比一无所有更难过 OH BABY
我不奢求给我一个结果
如果要走至少要告诉我
你的爱早已经不同我的心缺了一个洞
我像是失去心跳的不倒翁动也不能动
你的爱我已经不懂我的爱没有用
如果你问起我假装不痛

lolz this song has been in my com for very long but didnt notice it until one day when i hear it from my mp3 tis is so nice:) and ty to LYNN tat i hav tis song haha if she nvr ask me to find i won knw abt tis song le TY:)

jobs

2009-07-14T22:53:00.004+08:00

are you a
part timer??
full timer??
male or female??
doesnt matter do u find ur work totally not good??
thought of quitting??
haha why dun you look at de pic 1st before decidin:)

would you smell other ppl armpit even if deodorant is spray??
would you be a deodorant tester??

or would you rather wear a chicken suit and deliver??

hmmm maybe a plumber is btr...but wat if the toilet is so flooded till this level??

or you are a electrician?? repairin wires??after see in this you should be happy u are in spore if not u are so goin to have a hard time to find de correct wire.

urgent for toilet???cant find some??no wry there is a mobile toilet wow wat a job carryin the toilet bow ard would you do tat??if they wanna hire you.

diving lover??haha wanna work as ditch digger in poland ma??it seem as diving juz tat de water cleaniness is a little big different...
this job is known as a horse whisperer??? i dunno wat it is but it seem lik...im thinkin it is...hmmm

ohhh would mind washing an elephant butt??but not juz sprayin water instead it is in that way above would you still wan the job if u r hirer??

after all this pic are you wonderin??hmmm ur jobs is not tat bad after all?? haha think twice be4 you quit:)

hip hop

2009-07-13T16:31:00.002+08:00

think you can do btr than them??
hmmm do be fair when dun i mak it tis way u think u can do btr than them when u are in that age??check out how good they are at such a young age dun be JEALOUS worzzz...u can do it too if u try but not in that age but older heez...

DOTA

2009-07-01T00:03:00.002+08:00

DOTA...

many ppl have different thinking abt this games.
teachers and students have different thinking abt this game.
parents and children have different view on this game.
boys and girls have different view about this game.
DOTA lover and non-lover have different comment as well.

so what make this game so attractive??
i dunno despite playing b4 but im not attract to it instead i find it boring.
some girls say this game is juz lik walk and walk only than see ppl kill.which mean only walk and kill .while the guys find it more than juz walk and kill.so wat else attract them??

and some gals feel that there bf grow more attract to dota than them.so are you one of those who become a DOTA addict?? man share ur view on dota worz:)thanks

ren bdae

2009-06-28T23:10:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MR TAN LIREN

yes, the man in black shirt and white short is the man of the day dun take ur eyes of him.

birthday boy with beauty by himself that day.the rest dun jealous lik jack u got the smallest......

liren:man the cake is not CHOCOLATE one -_-
jiawei: hey bro special ma u de very first not to have a chocolate bdae cake

after singing the bdae song ren is finally making his bdae wish but what we dunno is...

he is so lucky the candle cannot be blown off so easily bet he mak many wish...
lik everytime be4 he blow he mak one wish...
so how many time did he try to blow de candle??

ren profile
name: TanLiRen
age: FINALLY 19
bdae:28/06/90
school: PPS,JWSS,NP
hobbies:DOTA,sports...
frenzhip starts:errr k2??meet aain at pri 4 basketball club.
status:single and available haha:)
number:9........maybe should ask from him
description:in short a good gentleman wan to knw him??haha

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO
祝你年年有今日。
快高长大
学业进步
身体健康
桃花连连

小朋友吵架

2009-06-26T17:38:00.002+08:00

ever seen kids argue??or rather taiwanese kids argue??here u go here got 2 cute taiwan boys arguing and the younger kid sound lik he onli knw 5 words guess wat it is...
and be sure not to eat when u watch or you might laugh till choke:)
enjoy

be with you

2009-06-26T03:09:00.003+08:00

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this song is the soundtrack of the movie 10 promises to my dog be with you by boa.listen to it and you might juz be touch by it btr still if you watch the movie b4 it might juz touch you more.

first new post-movie review 10 promises to my dog

2009-06-25T04:09:00.002+08:00

movie review

hey ppl this is the first post i make after i make some change.this blog will no longer be my personal blog but for joy purpose:)i will mak many different post lik movie intro song dedication topic discussion etc... so to day is movie tak a look at this movie below...

dog lovers this is a must watch show for you guys this story between a gal her dog and the 10 promises is goin to touch you guys.after watchin this show to be honest with u guys i did shear many tears so be prepare.prepare a box of tissue by your side cause you nvr knw when ur tears will come rollin:)

if i will to rate tis movie it gets 8/10
it a muz watch non dog lover do watch this as well giv it a try it a heart warmin movie:)

选择 decision

2009-06-17T02:51:00.003+08:00

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选择 decision...
最近我发现了我以前所做的决定有很多都是错的选择。

hmmm i guess life is juz lik doin a series of MCQ ba or maybe walkin in a maze 1 wrong decision might juz cause you something in the end.

hmmm i dun dare to say i make many right decision.but i dare to say i make 3 wrong decision.ohh this 3 decision affect how i will be lik now.i realli wonder wat will i happen if i choose de other way round???hmmm onli if time can go back.i guess makin a decision izzit as easy as we think.

wat i learn is that be4 every decision mak it btr to think twice b4 u act cause time can goes back if u regret ur decision all is too late le worz.since we can turn the time back and redo our decision than why not mak a new one and see if it will give you almost de same result as you wan.

abt tat now i got one impt decision to mak.should i go continue to STUDY or go into NS??that a tough one i discuss with many frenz but till now i still dunno wat to do.i still not sure wat i wan.hmmm this time round i wan to think longer,no more regretful decision le.i juz need a bit more time tat all.

do not be afraid to mak ur decision jiawei.do not avoid cause you are scare you have to face it in the end anw so no point runnin.hmmm so left??straight??right??or remain??

time will nvr be able to turn back.so before making any decision why not calm down first and think ahead and see what you really want before making the decision dont rush into making a decision.cause every chances of making decision is precious so we must cherish it and make the best out of it arent i right??

2009-06-09T02:21:00.003+08:00

today manage to chat wit nana im so happi.but after tat something happen i realise something again something tat i nvr ever wan to rmb something tat i wish i nvr need to feel again.

i rmb tat in the past when i knw abt my mum died juz days after my 5 yrs old bdae,from tat day on i been blaming myself for her dead.and every month i will hide in my room and tears will juz come down and i will keep blamin myself sayin myself as a jinx.nobody knw abt this and tis goes on for many yrs until...

until this yr i met her gina soon.i started to slowly forget my past and start to forget my horrible destiny.i tht tis time i can bring her and break through my destiny but im wrong those who get close to be nvr have a happy endin i guess...nana i bring tis to you.

perharps im juz a jinx??someone who is cursed to bring bad luck to whoever that is close to me
those who care abt me those who love me

my mum dote me alot but look i lose her and she pass away look i bring this to her.after tat my grandma move in to stay with us.she dote me alot as well she treat me very good juz before i can thanks her she is brought away from me again.is me again i brought harm to another person i care again.i lose two of my impt family member now im lonely at home le...

ever since then i live in my own world until i meet 2 of them at 2 different time they change me again,but the endin is same of course i loses them and bring unhappiness to them.

i rmb in sec 1 i meet this gal while playin badminton.at the moment it is love at first sight.we will both from 2 different school i tht we will impossible therefore i juz went on and play with her and the frenz.but wat i didnt expect is that b4 she left she actually ask her frenz to live her msn to me and there hopes begain...i try to get close to her and i did in the end juz b4 i can do anything she told me she livin for USA for study.she told me when she goes oversea we got no way of communcatin and i tht this is de end.but it not.instead whenever it summer vacation she will come back for holi and she will contact me.and soon we become tgt durin one of her holi.but things didnt last we break up durin her nxt holi.and she is unhappi i brought it to her.

after weiyu incident i nvr tht something lik this will happen again.yrs ago one day i went to qh house for mahjong i saw her frenz gina.i find her face so chubby very cute and her smile so attractive once again love at first sight again but tis time i knw we r impossible and true it is.but nvr did i knw yrs ltr in 2009 jun say wan give qh surprise say wan find her best frenz in fhss especially gina i was so excited tat i ask ard and finally i got her no le.and tat day we sms alot i find her so friendly so i decided to mak frenz with her.but i didnt tak action until valentine's day and finally i touch her with our trust with each other we hav so many happy time tgt but juz be4 our third month we broke off and she suddenly become unhappi as well.why do i bring tis to her i really love her alot but why do i hurt her so much in de end...why am i de one bein play by destiny...

last but not least my close buddy junwei we are close frenz from child care and i cause in to hav so many problems too.not the him i knw isnt really happy at all.

but why do all who is close to be either died or will turn out to have a unhappy life.why am i such a jinx how do i break this curse???

nana i still love you i still cant let go and i won nana break the curse with me tgt hao ma??i knw now u are feelin vexed i won go irritated you anymore meanwhile i will juz wait for you and bear all this unhappiness to myself.